i feel like blabbering nonsense. someone needs to give me some inspirations, so that i can shit out my-whatever-nonsense there is. so yes, yesterday was my birthday but there is nothing about it i feel like talking now. i just want to talk about anything else but that. i am bored. very bored that is. its the examination madness (not mugging madness, cos' i am not really into mugging, but i guess mugging is really into me now blah). there is like no motivations to get me moving. i just want to find a spot, sit there stone and smoke for hours, thinking of nothing in particular. i just want to waste my day away so that i can feel that i am still living. i just do not want to talk to anybody except myself. i want to feel love, and yet i do not want to love. i love to receive presents but i do not have any to give. i love the present that my sis got for me, she is an angel. sometimes, when i look at her, i would wonder why do i have an angel so close to me. just love her to bits. her smurfy face. my mama, she is very explosive. but then again, when she explodes for no good reason, she can be kind of cute and amusing. and my papa. i don't know what's with him. he can always come up with kooky statements, which makes totally no sense but get me laughing. how i love my family. very weird combination but i love them so. i am glad that they love me so too. how i can be so lazy, and refused to buy food even when i am really starving. mama will always buy food for me, and ask, what would you be without your parents. i laugh. i be nothing without them. i been with them for the whole of my life, taking bits of their traits from them and funny of her to ask what i would be without them. i would be starving then. and ya, mama is a good cook. i always tell her i will eat whatever she cooks. that's nonsense. when she cook something that i do not like, i do not eat. i just pretended that i did not see that dish at all. i just tell her that i am heating the food and forget about it. i am crap. i know. hey people in my house have big appetite okay. so i reckoned that my angel sister would clear it all, and she did it most of the time. and so yah, mama still think that i would eat whatever she cooks. craps. and my lovely friends. why. they are just adorable simply by being themselves. ya. there is no need to act like someone whom you are not and think that you are being considerate or loving. oh goodness, do you think that no one knows that you are trying hard not to be yourself. the only person who do not know that is you. and like who bother to correct you. you are nobody. yah. of course, that's not my friends hah. see. i am really getting warmed up blabbering nonsense. hey its blabbering, cause it is been held up for some time yah. perhaps. like who cares. how? funny. i am getting better now, but still bored. let's see. there is this pretty girl in my life whom i loved for so many years. yah. we are giving each other shit most of the time, though i think i received more shit than her, i still love her. see. that's bond. we just love and accept each other as the person we are. she is like so sensitive, sentimental, emotional and me. i am like, nothing like her. perhaps we are meant to complement each other. ger i love to spend time with you. i would want to laze on the beach while you are swimming out in the sea. and hopefully i wont fall asleep like last time. i don't want to be cooked. next time i will bring umbrella and sunblock. how. are you going to study astrology with me. ms lo n ms chua's astrology talkshow. MEOW. i love to irritate you. its like. taking revenge on you. for the pain which you have inflicted on me. ouch. and yes. i would love to irritate you till the end of time. you.. cant run. so don't bother ya. be a good girl. and there. ms Q. i love you too. yes. we been through shit too. next time i will go over your place, bunk in with you and we shall shit together. while smoking of course! your favourite hobby. why would i have miss that out. how about another 10 shots of tequila. wee u wee. just don't throw up on me. or i will pour your throw up onto your face. and obviously i am not kidding. i miss you so my dear girl. ms chin. the my-forever-teacher, perhaps she just have too much to teach. oh well, i love to learn. i love to listen. so that i get more inspirations to shit my nonsense out of my anal. that's scary. imagine alphabets, sentences or blabbering nonsense piece of shit out of your arse. okay, i realised. its not that hard to imagine. ok back to darling chin, yes. she is always take good care of her friends. why. i don't know. she has a lot of love to distribute. good riddance. cos' i don't. see. i called that another complementary combination. ms wong!! ahh. why are you always so pretty? your fair complexion, and gentleness just melt the heart of people around you. even me okay. waa seh. i am so envious. should i just break into your house and grab all your beauty products. i am just helping you to quit this expensive habit of yours, i swear. its like so much money. i can repack them into a smaller size of 5ml and sell them for some money for my shopping and perhaps a present for you as well. MJＭJMJ! when shall we do it again? sha sha sha! FangXUE! shit. did i just did capitalisation of m-j. see. it just excites me. booo me. ah xue. where are you. come back to me. i will drink till dawn with you. but you might not get to see me ever after which. soo.. will you? how can anyone laugh like you. like there is no one else except you. how. it is just so amazing. how can people not study and yet pass their exams. is that you? how can anyone just mj with such seriousness. all your frowns. omg. that seems to be the only time when i see you frown. relax okay. it just money. and you have it. be more charitable. and i will love you more. i promised. can't wait to see you. though its just two days later i be seeing you. how. what have you done to me. is it your laughter or is it your frown. relax okay. whatever it is, you are taking it too hard. KOR. booooooooooo. thanks for being by my side whenever i needed someone. what? i only have one kor. and that's you. no need to wonder too much if its you. okay. what is with your games and you. one day never play games, will you be constipated. or you are already having constipation. oh you. another crazy man. how can someone just game everyday and got distinction for all in UOL exams. no no. i not trying to promote him. he is sooo lazy and sooooo into gaming. he makes me snore at times. okay. i love you kor! so many thank you. you know that right? i have so many thank you for you. over the years. you are always close to my heart. and. please. sleep early la! simi taiji you. hey weijia you. always find troubles with me hor. i hate it okay. you just piss me off. talking to you makes me age faster than ever. shit. i am only 23. but whenever we are together i feel like 32. damnit. it must be you. please do some self reflection or BOM you! say sorry before its too late for anything. boo! jiaming. why. are you there and i am not. it really sucks to be me. how! how can anyone just booooooom and off they go. its so xiao sha. how. how can anyone be like you. that's craziness. absolute carefree (seemingly). yup. is it the walking on the roof of selegie complex that locks our friendship? seemingly so. i am glad that you are in my life. so! be glad that i am in yours too. smile. take more pictures. next time my wedding you be my photographer yah. uncle elmo, stop being so sensitive and emotional before i kick your arse ok. and thanks for e-card. come on lorh. i know you for so long. this is the first time i received something so virtual from you. kind of surprised. that you would do that. corny. thank you yah! its very lovely. and please get a girl la! not me hor. you not my cup of tea. too thick for my tasting. woah.. i can really crap right. and who and who. thanks for people who are in my life. jane, thanks. you are a very sweet girl. who has a pair of eyes like yours. round big long eyelashes. pretty eyes. pretty smile. lovely girl. i love spending time with you. you are so simple. you are so you. i just like it when you are being yourself. rest please. you are sick. give your body a break, before your body breaks you. cindyger. your eyes are so fierce when you are pissed. how? wear sunglasses okay. don't let the heat of your eyes penetrate anyone. what! don't tell me you already angry now. ai. whatever la! melt me then. when we have coffee next time. your treat of course. i will be melted into a puddle of water. shit. i am supposed to be out now. i am still blabbering nonsense here!! how. just a few more. mr gu. what's with you. can anyone be more corny than you. you are really really the corniest guy i ever know with all your corny questions. you are just so lucky that i am a weirdo myself. if not, i do not know how other girls are going to take your corny questions and comments. get a grip of yourself okay. if one day i had enough then how. don't ever try to influence me with your corny-ness please. i love the way i am now. patrickkoh. is it you? or is it the traits of libra. irritating leh. how can you just left me waiting for you there. and be so irresponsible. ah! ROAR! you. and your nonsense. you just want to chuck me aside and go romantic with josephine right. SHIT U! oh well. you have not given me my present. you are still nice at times. and yah. you are always a ring away. cos' your phone number is so easily remember. haha. this is funny. your phone number is. i do not think anyone else have numbers like yours. really. okay. remember my present ah. josephine. oh. my lovely classmate. so how's the dinner. is it romantic. i really can't picture both of you eating together. there will be like so many bubble words on top of your heads. funny. and how did you gather your wealth and be so fcking rich. gimme some. i am broke. and i feel so broken. BOO. really got to go. its like. I LOVE YOU GUYS. and.. for those i did not mentioned. com'on la. i still talk to you guys over the phone, msn, sms. and yah. its like that. not everyone is close physically. but always close to my heart. muacks all !
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喉咙好痛。最讨厌喉咙痛，吃也吃不好，睡也睡不好。很难过。
删除所有不好的画面，并不是逃避 - 这是一个爱自己的表现。如果不再想起，会更快乐，哪又何须想起？选择不都掌握在我们自己的手里吗？不要把自己的快乐放逐，不要听天由命，也不用怨天尤人，你有绝对的权利选择自己的快乐与否。
很饱很饱！为什么我每次都吃那么多！女孩子不是都吃得少少，吃的斯斯文文的嘛！。。我要节食了！！！
人就是习惯性的动物 - 好老套哦。哈哈哈。
呜。今年的考试，我的心境出奇的平静。不会焦虑，不会紧张，也几乎没有压力。也许，是厌倦了读书生涯吧。又也许，是人的本性使然，守在一个岗位久了便觉得厌倦。
自己身旁有很多双子朋友，男男女女。也许是物以类聚吧。
天平座的人总是温文尔雅，懂得为别人着想。但我总不敢离他们太近。他们虽然会为别人着想，但还是会有以自己的感受为重心的时候（平时，则是暗流汹涌），不知道别人这么想，但我还是受不了。>_<
ROAR!!!!
There is a HUGE cockroach living in my house. I always see it "shoo-ing" here n there, and I am pretty sure that it is the same cockroach, it is SO HUGE. I even tried killing it once with boiling water, and it shoo-ed under the cabinet. - so conclusion: it is still around. pssst gonna kill it one day.
I love Emi Fujita. Sharon introduced her to me 3 years ago (thanks to her, Emi is really good). Time flies and I still love her songs so so much. Her songs are alway soothing to me. SMILE. cos' I found her song -wishes.
