Thursday, June 28, 2007 / 12:57 AM
柔柔的晚风轻轻吹过 我的心情平静而寂寞 当我想忘记爱情去勇敢生活 是谁到我身边唱起了情歌 当初的爱情匆匆走过 除了伤口没留下什么 你总是在我寂寞流泪的时候 用你的双臂紧紧抱着我 不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我 除非你真的能给予我快乐 那过去的伤总在随时提醒我 别再被那爱情折磨 不要在我哭泣的时候说爱我 除非你真的不让我难过 我不想听太多那虚假的承诺 让我为爱再次后悔 犯下的错 Listen
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 / 5:48 PM
...is 90% back, at least i am beginning to speak properly now. just cant tell you how much Lord loves me. Ask and you have it.
Thank You Lord! MUACK!
如果，流泪是抚平伤痛最好的方法，
那也许你应该找一个理由来痛哭流涕。
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如果，叫喊是解除怨气最好的方法，
那也许你应该找一个无人的海边大声狂叫。
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如果，恋爱能让你感到绝对的幸福，
那也许你应该找一个人来谈谈恋爱。
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如果，任性能让你觉得你还是你，
那也许你应该偶尔任任性。
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如果，叹气代表了无奈，
那也许你应该找一个瓶子把叹气给收起来，
让无奈也尝试着无奈。
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如果，什么也不想做，
那，就别做了。
Thursday, June 21, 2007 / 1:42 AM
幸福总在简单中寻获。。
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 / 10:15 AM
放假了。觉得自己的小脑袋瓜也在放假，空空的。自己还挺享受这种空荡荡的感觉，什么也不想最好。或许，每个人偶尔也需要让自己脑袋瓜放一下假。真是爽啊！哈哈
这次的假期和往常的不大一样，因为阿秦得要作工了！真的还有点怕怕的。做了这么久的学生，现在要找工作上班，好怕啊！想想，找个人嫁了更好，又省时又省事。可说要嫁人，还要有人嫁才是，不可能来者不拒，谁都能嫁吧。
一直以来，我都觉得不能太早婚。因为在决定要结婚时，我们理应要有很好的事业基础，稳定的收入，和绝对的信心两人能够恩爱的维系一个家。也许，这就是所谓结婚的理想状况吧。在全部条件符合时，是否这段婚姻就能长长久久，恩恩爱爱，快快乐乐呢？
以一个女生的角度，我想我们希望得到的是绝对的安全感。安全感可以来自男生对自己的专一，金钱，或是房子。你们相信自己会得到一个对自己爱护有加，很会赚钱，又会顾家的老公吗？如果，得到这样的一个人的代价是要和别人分享自己的老公，你会选者放弃什么来换取他对你的专一？我想是社会的风气吧，把人都变得务实，甚至现实了很多。又想想，人嘛，哪有十全十美的？
那个男人给了你绝对的专一，但没有前途，没有包袱，没有志气，这样的男人，你还要不？
那个男人很拼他的事业，可说是前途无量，但他毫无闲暇去在乎和理会你的感受，你的开心，你的伤心，几乎大多时候你都在独守空窗，这样的男人，你还要不？
那个男人不仅事业有成，懂得调情，还对你呵护备至，但却风流成性，这样的男人，你还要不？
那个男人给了你绝对的专一，工作平平，但是不会调情，和他在一起可说是乏味之极，想想自己还要跟他共度一生，这样的男人，你还要不？
看看，好像是什么给多了就得要什么拿少了。或许是人的本性，喜欢在不完美中寻找完美，然后在苦苦的问自己为什么自己的恋人总不够完美。有时，还得等到失去了才发现原来完美是因为你在爱着那个他。
我想无论男女，在一段感情或是婚姻里都有着同样的需要。
最先，我想是接受。当你决定要和他在一起时，你要完全地接受他。他的个性，他的好脾气，坏脾气，甚至是怪脾气。你可以不赞同，不喜欢，但你必须要接受。当然，必须是来自双方的接受，恋爱嘛，总是两个人的事。对方也得接受你的性格啊。如果，连最基本的接受也做不到，那还谈什么恋爱，结什么婚？切勿因为表面化的喜欢，而仓促地将自己投入一段莫名的爱里。
接受也包括了多许的包容。在对方犯错时，包容他的错误吧。想想，为什么他会犯这样的一个错？真得不能原谅吗？包容并不是漠视对方的过错，相反的是把犯的错给搬上桌面摊出来说。做错了不要紧，最重要的是，懂得自己错在哪里，然后对症下药，从此不再犯便是。
再来，我想是迁就吧。接受了他的一切，你就要好好的调试自己去迎合他的步伐。不要觉得是不公平的，你若是爱了，还有什么好计较的呢？爱着你的他，或许也在悄悄的迁就着你的步伐。你可以试试在他发脾气的时候，安静的看着他的每个肢体语言，或许你还会被他的孩子气给逗笑了也说不定。看着满脸笑容的你，他或许还会跟你一起笑。有时，迁就也会带来点滴的惊喜和欢笑。
两个人在一起，我认为相当重要的是良好的沟通。若是，谈不来的话，我想也不会相爱了吧。我发现，聊聊天天，说一说未来，谈谈心事不难。难就难在，在心里有先不愉快时，连脑子也懒得去想要这么说。良好的沟通，也是意味着要懂得如何平心静气的把要说的话说完，而且还要懂得如何选辞用字，避免自己说的话伤害了对方。与其告诉对方不要乱发脾气，不如告诉他，他分析问题时总是头头是道，让自己没办法不去听他所说的话。这样一来，又能让他平心静气得跟你说话，在说的时候，他的心里也很爽啊，因为他知道你有在听。
还有，绝对不可或缺的信任。这就不用多说了吧。不要让自己的猜疑心浇熄了彼此的热情，毁灭了自己的快乐。若觉得有些别扭或是不放心，不如就痛快地说出来。千万不要去猜想对方的想法，因为你怎么猜，还是在用你的脑猜，我想你们的脑是不一样的吧。
最后，要懂得说谢谢。不要认为别人对你的好是理所当然的 - 不论你们在一起有多少年，要记得说声谢谢。
如果，你的恋人已经做到以上几点，或许他就是那个你能嫁／娶的人。
也许，我还是有点小女人，所以在我的眼里，男人一定要有抱负，要有冲劲，要懂得如何规划自己的人生。我觉得，懂得如何规划自己人生的男人，是一种对感情负责的表现。若不了解自己要的是什么，希望得到是什么，不知道该如何去争取自己想要的，那这样的一个人能靠得住吗？
Sunday, June 17, 2007 / 1:41 AM
me. with my mineral water. the day after my last paper. i was so tired. and gosh. my eyebags are bad. funny. i have never seen myself drinking from a straw. till now. say hi to my holidays.
i love holidays.
Sunday, June 10, 2007 / 12:35 PM
I need a job.
Checklist: I do
1. dishes - though they might have some oil stain on them, you can be assured that there's only the minority.
2. ironing - i did burn holes in my clothes before, but that has only happened to my clothes.
3. cook - well, it may not be delicious, but definitely edible. palatable? hmmm
4. sweep and mop - the easiest task of all! as long as you do not walk around with microscope, the floor is certainly clean. and perhaps you do not want to walk around the house when i am mopping the floor.
5. miscellaneous - i do errands, pay bills (my bills as well), chat with you, sing and dance for you.
okay, here comes my expectations for the job:
i am expecting a less than 6 hours job per day, 3 days work per week. hoping that any kind soul is able to give me the job at a salary of 1.9k sgd (at least). yah.. i am not expecting a lot right? (it doesn't even hit 2k!)
okay. do hit my mail if you are looking for a maid!
Saturday, June 09, 2007 / 1:07 PM
MY EXAMS ARE OVER. OVER OVER OVER! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!~ IT'S SUCH A JOYOUS OCCASION! CHEERS!
i can't tell you how happy i am. i would most probably understate the happiness state i am in. the paper was okay, though i only have confidence to score in 1 out the 4 questions i did. one of the questions goes ..' critically value the rating system in the context of the quality of credit rating.' my conclusion: 'i can only say that we are having the best right now, till the next improvised rating system.' haha, i laughed to myself when i finished writing this line. haha.
Blah, it's my last paper. i was feeling so light already when they started to collect the scripts, then i half jump half run out of the examination hall. the feeling was just so overwhelming that i felt like toasting right there, right then. just GAN BEI LE! i just couldn't stop smiling to myself. i was so so so happy! my spirit was so high it hits the sky.
When is the last time I saw the sun sets? Oh my. the sky. i was looking out to the sky last evening, it was just so amazing, it brought a smile onto my face, it moved me so much that i wana cry. is it the clouds? or is it the pinkish orangish sky? ..or perhaps it is the combination of both? ah, this is a kind of 感动 we will never have it real in our hand. simple things in life. :)
Thursday, June 07, 2007 / 7:41 AM
I woke myself up with my own snoring. *cor cor*uh.. its 418pm now. i am at home with my notes. so lovely. i wondered if Lord will be angry with me for abusing the gift He gave. oh God. yah.. i only studied 1 out of 7 chapters, not sure how much i can push through before the paper comes tomorrow. though, now i am under a severe under-preparation condition, i am still full of anticipation for tomorrow. it marks the last day of examination (at least for this year), and so. i do not really have an idea of what i should be doing after which. i just can't wait, can't wait, can't wait. it's a cry. o Lord. take me through this.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 / 1:21 PM
Yah,with all those drilling down my block.
Gona miss my little girl. Hopee she will be having a great holiday. Rain her with God's grace.
There is this friend, who fell in love with a girl. They were having so much fun with each other, and feels totally comfortable in each other presence. Alright, so somehow they decided to be together. They were like so totally in love with each other, then one day (a few months later), the guy decided to break up with this girl cos' he thought they are not really compatible. What an 'instantnoodle' age. Weren't you so totally in love when you are with her? Or the feelings just evaporates when both of you were already together? He says that he really do love her at the point of time, and when the feelings are gone, he doesn't see the need to hold onto the relationship. What's that love, that comes and goes?
If he has done that to other girls as well, then is he a playboy? I wondered, if it's involves any moral value issue. Or rather if he has been true to his own feelings, tell the girls that it is better to be together without any commitments and obligations, would that make him less jerk? I am not judging him. It is just very human to want to be together when you developed likings for each other, and if the likings do further developed into love or eventually evaporates, that is another issue. Here, the thing is that no one knows how you are feeling or even you might be unsure of it yourself.. Well, I guess, we are old enough to be responsible for our own actions.
Yawn, it is such a boring afternoon. I feel like having orea cheesecake from secret recipe. well.. the aftertaste is nice. enticing. goes well with coffee. vanilla latte. really really. just laze around in town area where everyone is like rushing to somewhere. weeeee.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 / 12:59 AM
好想出海。好想面对着一望无际的海洋。好想享受着迎面而来的微风。好想庆幸自己能够呼吸。好想大声呼喊‘活着真好！’好想在海边买一间小木屋。好想与世隔绝享受着宁静。好想懒懒散散的漫步沙滩。好想优哉游哉的浪费光阴。好想在中午繁忙时看着穿梭的人群吃着我的雪糕。好想在深夜无人时坐在一片宽旷的草原瞭望星星。这应该都是世俗人的‘好想’吧 - 我真是俗气。。：）
Saturday, June 02, 2007 / 8:26 PM
你的天堂在哪儿？
是谁承诺过，要为我遮风霜雨露？
是谁承诺过，要为我筑爱的宫墙？
是谁说的，我的笑容是他今生最大的守候。
是谁说的，我的温柔是他今生最大的眷恋。
一直在追，追寻着一个缥缈的天堂。
也许，只有在梦里才能寻得的天堂。
