Tuesday, July 31, 2007 / 11:01 PM
如果我们之间有着海洋的距离，你还愿意游向我的怀抱吗？
他说我是世上最美的女人
我为他保留着那一份天真
关上爱别人的门
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也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
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我的要求并不高
待我像从前一样好
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你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会
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我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
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一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
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风吹呀吹吹呀吹
吹在黄昏的空中
我飘呀飘飘啊飘
飘不进你的心中
问一问风怎么说
也不能解释所有的痛
到不如问一问
我要怎么去过
.
我追阿追追阿追
却停在原地不动
风为什么还不走
陪着我安静等你划过
我不再问为什么
因为我懂了
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拥抱的温度只有你清楚
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通往幸福的旅途
黄昏才领悟
该往哪里停驻
我用一辈子去追逐..
Saturday, July 28, 2007 / 2:44 AM
...selling xiaolongbao. God knows how much I love xiaolongbao and the spinach with sesame. (again) What's with that anyway? It tastes absolutely delicious!
Okay,back to my job. I spent more than 10hrs with it since I started on tuesday.. there's pretty much interaction with people. and I think my black and white uniform looks cool hee. There is always a sense of self satisfaction when customers thank me for the xiaolongbao I sold to them, I always hear them saying 'wow, thanks girl! the xiaolongbao tastes great and you serve us fast.' its HOT. heehee. It is always amazing to learn how much xiaolongbao is consumed daily. its like the kitchen is always rushing to make more. and me, i ran around with it. and keep some warm in my stomach. :D
well, having to wake up at 645am everyday is no easy feat for me. i only sleep about 4, 5 hrs everyday. its a wonder that i can still type. heehee. i was so sleepy in the noon that i took 'ha gao' (prawn dumplings) for xiaolongbao, when its totally different thing! I hoped that the manager will never know about this. of course, unless she reads my blog. hee.
yawn. no idea where my darling girl went to. i suspect she is trying to dump me aside. could it be the xiaolongbao? or maybe its the chef? yawn. feels really tired.
alright. hmm
there is this customer who pass by the shop for 3 days consecutively, sometimes in the evening and sometimes in the morning, i am kind of curious about him i dont know why. I want to tell him about how xiaolongbao is made, and how much sales i made in a day. and each time i try to walk near and talk to him, he is always distracted. He is quite friendly and of course he tried to strike conversation with me each time i am near, and somehow, he just went on and on about his own stuffs (which i do not understand half the time). I couldnt really cut into his speech and really tell him about the xiaolongbao. sounds abit funny, but i am quite upset.
hopes that one day he will really be interested in the xiaolongbao and start asking. we have to start somewhere dont we? :) so today i was actually so expecting him to come, so i can find a chance to talk to him about the xiaolongbao, and he did not appear. yah, maybe when someday he is really interested about the xiaolongbao and i might not want to talk about it already.
people are strange. so so so strange.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007 / 7:49 PM
MEOW!今天心血来潮，让我来谈狮论座。狮子座的男生们！你们真的那么有魅力吗！哈哈，真不可思议，身边的好友都恋上狮子座的男人。天蝎，射手，巨蟹，还有我和狮子座的不解之缘！身边的男狮可说是一萝萝的。嘿嘿。男狮最搭的就是双子女~哈哈。不要羡慕！！配射手也很不错。射手女和双子女挺想象的。两个好友。嘿嘿。和天蝎女，若天蝎女真的爱了，那就是再毒的蝎子也愿意被狮子含在嘴里。爱得你浓我浓，哈哈！和巨蟹嘛，不要杀我哦！。。巨蟹和狮子就是怪怪的。狮子座的男人。普遍在职场上，都不受欢迎，因为也许是太爱炫了（他们可是炫得很有style喔！） ，或是总爱不顾一切地赢人和巴结上司，所以招人厌恶。工作时，往往会全情投入（去做他们认为该做的事)，得罪的人多过欣赏他们的人，所以真心好友寥寥可数。他们总是懂得分散自己的注意力，因此在一群朋友里，他们决不会让任何人觉得被冷落（当然，这是没有女朋友的男狮）。有了女友的男狮，不可思议的，会事事以女友为优先考量（这是你对他还有新鲜感的时候。。），他们的体贴温柔，还有他们那纤细的心，对女友的关怀备至，足以让你融化在他们浓浓的爱里！哈。给了你甜蜜之后，接下来呢？和狮子男谈恋爱，非常考功夫。莫非性格使然，你铁定被咬死死的。对他们好能让他们觉得被爱，称赞他们会让他们骄傲，让他们肯定自己在你心里的地位，但做多了，他们会认为是理所当然，会越来越懒，懒得付出，懒得理你。有一点好笑，他们还是爱你的，只是懒倒没话说。这时的他们，就从狮子变懒虫，懒得让人叫救命！！要如何和他恋爱，并且和他一直保持甜蜜的时光？不要太在意他说的冷言冷语。他们有时就是不可以好好讲话，说的话都好像在讽刺你。不要理他们说的话，要是有点本事的，顶上几句让他哭笑不得的话（不是顶到他冒烟！）有时，直接告诉他，他说的话真是冷到极点让你无言以对。狮子座的男人，有点贪新鲜，所以偶尔呈现不一样的自己会引起他的小注意（有点而已，不要太过火的变变变）。所以，对他们而言，平衡感是很重要的。给了太多，他会不屑一顾（也许等到失去了才来后悔吧），给了太少，又燃不起他心中的那把火。就像跳舞一样，他进一步，你退一步，他退一步，你进一步 - 协调感很重要。他们，可以说是，非常非常固执。不用考验他们的倔强到底到了什么地步，你要做的就是漠视他们的固执。如果，你漠视不了，那你最好不要跟狮子座的男人在一起，你会变僵尸(气得你一直跳！哈哈！）狮子- 是群兽之王。当然的，他有点霸道，有点自私，有点懒惰，有点无聊，还有点寂寞。他们有个很孩子气的心理，却又摆出一个盛气凌人的架子 - 什么叫高处不胜寒，也许他们是最懂的。和狮子男的最配 - 1. 双子女- 双子女总是可以满足狮子男那贪新鲜的心态，又懂得如何哄他们，把一头狮子变成一只猫，而且还不用绑着就乖乖跟着。呵呵呵。2. 摩蝎女- 摩蝎女看起来斯斯文文，总是有一种说不出的气质，但关上房门，却变成一只野猫，是男人都忍不住啦！嘿嘿嘿。3. 射手女- 射手女那个什么都好像不懂得脸！让男人就是好想好好的保护着她。。大男人与小女人的结合。呵呵呵。胡言到此，若想详知，请电邮：ashleyun@hotmail.com,一份全星座报告只需$48. :)Labels: Astrotalk, 星座
Saturday, July 21, 2007 / 11:33 AM
Is that piece of gossip fleshy and delicious? It smells so nice from afar, and the scent is just simply alluring. It must be your giving and sharing nature, to give a piece of each gossip to your fellow mongers. Did it fortified your relationship with your fellows? Did they say thank you to you? Or did they reward you with even heavenly piece of gossip that you are just so glad that you have a sharing nature?Just when you think it will not cost you anything, you are most probably degrading yourself in front of your loved ones. Nice chewing on the gossips and pray that it really does come free.. sometimes. :)
Thursday, July 19, 2007 / 8:15 PM
“你和我的相遇是缘份的约定，绝对不是偶然。”
不知道为什么，就是觉得这句话很美。也许是因为这个约定，所以我泄劲力气的付出我的所有。你也许看不到，但我正在努力，努力的在给你我的全部，让你觉得安全，觉得被爱，被在乎。付出的点滴，我耐心的等待着回报 - 你的快乐，你的笑容，你的一个拥抱。
我不愿意在还没有放进所有之前说放弃。。无论，我们能否一起走到终点，这一定是一个最美的约定。
Wednesday, July 18, 2007 / 2:02 AM
There there there.
A WAKE UP CALL FROM THE VIRGINA.
My EX-BOSS.
DAY1.Talked to me for 3hours on the job scope alone.
LORSO.DAY 2.I came in at ten, because the first day she asked me to come in at ten.'
Text me TWICE to check why I am not in the office AT 9.
IS SHE FEELING BORINGLY LAME I WONDERED.
'Don't you know that the official working hours start at 9?'
(AS IF SHE EVER MENTIONED.)
Me: I don't.
Then she starts to gossip about other colleagues till 11+.. why the fuck do we even want to step in at 9 anyway.
SIAO.DAY 3.I came in with
Macdonald's breakfast.
In very serious tone, she asked:
'Why did you not call me when you are buying breakfast? Did you not even thought of me?'
I STUNNED. OBVIOUSLY SHE WAS NOT ON MY MIND. WHAT A
HORRENDOUS THOUGHT.Monitor spoilt.
I told her I have a monitor at home and asked her how much she is willing to pay for it.
She said
TEN BUCKS.
WOAH. Its
doesnt even cover my cab fare and I have to carry it all the way to the office, well, she must have thought that I am a
VERY NICE GIRL.
DAY 4.'So Ashley, do you like this job?'
Me: 'I don't love this job, neither do I dislike it. I am rather neutral with it.'
Her eyes and mouth WIDE OPEN.
SIAOLANGTaking in a very deep breathe:'YOU MEAN YOU DON'T LOVE THIS JOB?'
SIAO.DAY 5'So if there's a better job offer for you, will you leave?'
Me: Yes.
'Immediately?'
Me: Yes.
and her face turned green.
LIKE WHY SHE EVEN BOTHER TO ASK.
'I am not looking for people to walk for a few months and 1 year, I want people whom I can groom.'
-when she already ask on my interview and I told her I WILL RUN IF THERE'S A BETTER JOB OFFER.
MENOPAUSE.535pm.
'I need to talk to you now'
Me: Can we do it tomorrow? I got to run.
'No, I need to talk to you now.'
Me: Is it very important?
'Yes'
BITCHShe doing one-man-show until some point of the time she decided she need to hear from me:'tell me, what's on your mind right now? I need to know.'
Me: (honestly) I feel that all these emotional conversations are very pressurizing.
She started to get emotional and raised her voice: NO, these are not emotional talks, I JUST SAY WHAT NEED TO BE SAID.
SHE IS OBVIOUSLY LOSING IT AT THIS POINT OF TIME.
MAD WOMAN'See, I am concerned about how my employees feel about the job and I even asked Jason on his first day on how he feel about this job... blah and so on..'
Me: Boss, can we talk tomorrow? Its 6.10pm already and I meeting my friend.
'I am going to release you, but Carol told me not to so I am still having you.'
Me: Yah, I think I am not cut out for this job. So, you releasing me now?
'I am considering.'
OBVIOUSLY SHE IS TRYING TO THREATEN ME. TWO STAFFS JUST QUIT, ANOTHER QUITING IN TWO WEEKS TIME. WHY. SHE MOST PROBABLY WILL ENJOY WORKING WITH HERSELF.
Me: Since we can't find happiness in each other, lets just end it here okay.
'Let me think about it for one day then I will get back to you tomorrow.'
WHAT. SHE WANT TO HAVE THE LAST SAY OR WHAT. BLOODY PIECE OF SHIT.
DAY 6.Her first
sms of the day:
'Hi I will be calling you at ten.'
Me: I will be
in the movie.
'
Ok call you at eleven (i think she mentioned 11..i deleted her
sms)'
Me: I will still be in the movie. Can we talk tomorrow?
'No I need to talk to you today. You call me after your movie.'
BITCH.Me: It will be quite late. We can talk tomorrow. You have an early night.
I think its just common sense when the first reply is I will be in the movie.
Anyway, quite glad that I met her. I have not been this angry for long. so so so long.
I cannot even remember when is the last time i call any girl a bitch. So, really must thank her for bringing out that
ah
lian in me.
TMD THAT FUCKING ANAL-MOTIONAL MENOPAUSING BITCH.I wanted to call her a bloody bitch, then I remembered she couldn't bled anymore. BITCH.
Sunday, July 15, 2007 / 6:38 PM
Saturday, July 14, 2007 / 2:10 PM
Its only at the last minute of action then you realised that it is going to be over soon, and its time for you to collect your thoughts, emotions and even regrets. How many regrets would you want to bag before you know that there are just not enough space for you to bag it all or even feel remorseful about it?
How big a difference would that make to live life as though every day is the very last day? How would you love if you know that the one you love is not going to be with you for long?
Ok, perhaps its that. 'Let the one you love know that you love them.'
Gona give ma and pa a peck on the face. Gona buy my sis a lolipop. Gona give my dear a birthday card. Happy Birthday my lovely. Gona tell my baobei that 'I love you'. Gona love everyone as though they are vanishing soon, cherishing them to bits. :D
Friday, July 13, 2007 / 2:53 PM
无聊的一天。也许是少了人生的目标，所以一切显得枯燥乏味。或是少了爱情的滋养，所以连人生的目标也显得茫然。
与仲翔的晚餐 – 他说的一句话让我感触良多：
也许活着，就是要让你所爱的人感觉被爱。
如此浅白的道理，多么深远的意义。在每一个忙碌的日子，我们有在刻意得让自己所爱的人感受被爱，让他们觉得自己被重视吗？人，总是以自我为中心。一路走来，你有多少次为身边的人停下脚步，细心的聆听，用心的体会，让他们知道你正在在乎着他们？家人，爱人，朋友，甚至是需要你伸出援手的人。
是我们一直都在要求和奢望所以忘了什么是付出和给于？一直都觉得自己得到的不够多，所以不愿意付出。仿佛把自己的得与失放在一个天平上，先看看自己得到了多少，才决定能给于多少。如果周围的人都这样想的话，那我们得到的爱岂不是越来越少？
得到爱与关怀能给于自己安全感，在得到这安全感时才觉得自己的付出是值得的。这时，你也许才能毫无保留的付出。当对方感受到自己被爱与重视，他会感动，也会得到这莫名的安全感，然而开始慢慢的卸下防备，继而付出。
如此简单的理论，要多大的意志力才能做到。你能够在对方决定要付出以前站的住脚吗？你能够在对方觉得安全之前继续的付出吗？你能够在毫无回报的情况下，无私无悔的付出吗？
也许，人总是在顾着自己的尊严，所以不愿做那个付出者，好像那就是在承认自己就是那个弱者。在天平的另一端，就是强者吗？在爱的国度里，没有输赢，只有欢笑与泪水。当妈妈告诉你她爱你，那不成她失去了做妈妈的尊严？当你送礼给你重视的朋友时，看到朋友的笑脸时，你还会认为自己是输家吗？当与爱人吵架时，无论是谁对谁错，你踏出了第一步讲和，两人因此冰释前嫌，带着满满的爱意又投入对方的怀抱，这样的情景，你看到输家了吗？
给多的人，不一定是输家。相反的，一直在接收的那一方，若生在福中不知福，失去一个愿意给于自己幸福的人，我想，那才是真正的大输家吧。
Monday, July 09, 2007 / 1:00 AM
也许是那风儿起的浪，所以船只得要不停的游荡着 - 即使再疲惫，也得要往前走，在茫茫大海里寻找着属于自己的港口。运气较差的时候，船只有可能会遇到礁石； 若是还能继续漂泊，受点小伤也算是不幸中的大幸了。
在茫然大海里，独自漂泊感觉想必是无比的寂寞，无奈，甚至参杂了许多的不安和恐慌。放眼一看，看不到海的尽头，看到的只是无助和辛酸。究竟，要漂泊到几时才会遇到一个属于自己的港口？
也许，是风儿自己。想要停下脚步歇一歇也不行，是性格使然迫使风儿要不停的流浪。它太爱自由，也厌恶自由。它讨厌自由，因为自由让它潇洒而寂寞。它爱着自由，因为只有自由让它觉得自己还活着。奇其矛盾的风，它那不甘寂寞但却不受束缚的心让它一直的处于不安的状态。也许，情感总是让人困惑吧。
Thursday, July 05, 2007 / 3:21 AM
好累。
.
我的眼睛好累，
也许是它们正在想念合眼时的那一片黑暗，
仿佛黑暗能带来一点安慰让眼睛不再疲惫。
.
我的心也好累，
也许它厌倦了自己一直在莫名的跳着，
一个没有归宿的心总是容易感觉疲倦。
.
好累的我。
也许，真的应该好好的散散心。
Wednesday, July 04, 2007 / 1:58 AM
你是爱了才觉得幸福，还是感受到幸福所以爱了？我想两者都有吧，开始不懂是否是爱，但因为感受到幸福，所以浅浅爱了。后来，因为爱了，所以时时刻刻都可以感触良多，在一起时，可以很幸福，不在一起时，可以很思念，吵架时，可以很难过，仿佛所有的感受都被放大了。感受最深的永远是幸福。因为这是一辈子的事。
